Yours is a good mentality to have because it creates the emotional drive to learn more, so don't lose that. That being said, this isn't really that complicated. Its just a matter of taking enough time to look at the code and understand how its structured. I feel like the thing that differentiates developer skill is pretty much being able to do that, specifically in the process of having the model of the program in your head.
For me, I've had that mentality for the longest time and I didn't get anything done because, well, "I'm just average".
For me, a little bit of arrogance (there's no way I couldn't do X, let's go do it), even if I end up "looking stupid" (see, I told you it was that hard!), was far more valuable to my development
